My first wife passed from colon cancer 12 years ago and it changed my attitude towards life. Watched her die for 5 years it was hard on the kids
I can only imagine how difficult it was for you and your kids to see that and to go through that. That is one of my biggest worries/issues with the cancer I'm dealing with. It doesn't bother me...I can deal with it. I don't like the hand I've been dealt, but I can/will deal with it. I see my wife cry almost daily...I can see it with my kids how it affects them and I hate it. My son is 17 and an absolutely great kid...it scares me so much that when I pass away what it could do to him. He's at that age where you see them turn to alcohol or drugs or something bad that ruins their life when they go through something like this. We have a great group of family and friends to make sure that doesn't happen, but you just never know.
Back to more on topic of the OP...our family loves to go boating and camping, so when the weather gets a bit better that is what we plan on doing. We are going to try and get the boat and camper out as much as possible...it is one of our "happy places."
Eventhough inflation has been ridiculous and prices of everything seem to have gone through the roof, we will continue to make memories doing what we love as much as possible. If there is anything I can leave to this group at ramforum...that would be it. Make lasting memories with your close family and friends. Make the time daily to hug them and tell them you love them. Calm down...take a few seconds to think about something that might upset you and most of the time in the big picture it isn't a big deal, so let it go.