Every dude reading this feels for ya, hope that helps a bit. Nothing like the lesson I learned last year, never chain saw a tree w/o a helmet. 10 inch wide branch grabbed a freak way right into my dome on an 11 foot ladder my wife was holding. She was scratched to hell and back and I nearly died, still get headaches. Freak accident, still don't understand it. It was a straight down cut, something about the wood, it was Chinese elm so really hard. Made the exact cut 100's of times on trees. It is what it is, **** happens. If we could turn back time, I would gladly trade you lessons, I'll take yours and you can take mine? Let me know, I will try and get Emmett Lathrop "Doc" Brown to hook it up.